Sunday, August 23, 2009

Why I will NOT be making my blog Private.

So last night I cried, for probably 2 hours. I didn't just cry a little... it was a big cry. The kind where your face hurts and your eyes are puffy and your nose won't stop running. And you wake up with a crying hangover. I was reading a blog, a blog of someone who I have never met, never bumped into and probably never will. But her life brought me to my knees.
You see she lost her husband to Lupus. She is a beautiful 2o something girl, with an adorable little boy.
I ended up on her blog and I couldn't stop reading. I read about her husband's death and then I went to the archives and read about his fight, their life, their love and all that they have been through. And I cried through it all. I bawled like she was my best friend, and when I was done I prayed for her and her darling son.
When it was all said and done and I was lying in bed, I thought in my little brain of mine "That is why blog is not going private". You see I need all the prayers I can get. I don't care who you are, if you want to pray for me go right ahead. I might not be going through what this beautiful women is, but when I have my hard days and blog about them, I'll take any prayers that I can get in my direction.

Am I making the right choice for my family? For now the answer is yes. I am no dummy, I know that there are bad people in this world. I know there are people out there that steal pictures, leave comments and are just plain crazy. I know that 7 people have ended up on my blog by googling "I hate sonic", 6 of you are actually looking for my friend "kiera", and one of you wants to know "what happened to pollyanna paralyzed." I also know I've read blogs of people I have never met, and their words have affected me.

Do I believe that my words have an impact on people NO, but I am not going to be a hypocrite. I'm not going to say, you can't look at my life, but I'm going to hop around and read yours.

I strongly believe that everyone is just looking out for their family and doing what they feel is right, many of my favorite people have come out and said they were going private, so I thought I would come along and say why I'm not.

In the mean time, if you have a few moments and lots of tears and prayers to spare take a look at this darling family: http://www.kamandjami.blogspot.com/

11 comments:

RitterB's said...

You have a great way with words. I bounce back and forth about the whole private issue. I am glad I haven't.
Oh and if you are wondering... I have found this "kiera" friend you are talking about. I know where she is!

Lynette said...

I randomly came across their blog too...what a sad story. I like your reasoning why you don't want to go private...makes sense to me!

KC Mom said...

I have been thinking about going private for awhile but you've reaffirmed my reason for not.

Kara said...

I love blog hopping and have randomly come across some great blogs and even made friends with strangers. - thanks for sharing

elizabeth said...

Honestly, I don't know what to think. However, I'm glad somebody's blog had a positive impact.

Laura F said...

Okay, so I've done this SAME THING, and funny enough I was pregnant at the time, too! ;-) Just sayin'... nothing wrong with heightened sensitivity - you keep saying you hate people these days, but here's the flipside of the same malady. You're just more sensitive to things that would bother you in normal circumstances, both good and bad! So stop feeling like it's all bad. And don't bite me. Talk to you soon.

aLi said...

it made me cry, too! and I'm not pregnant. But I'm always sensitive. :P

Sam Ransom said...

I thinke everyone questions public or private. I understand why people go private. I wish there was a way to ask someone who is private if you can read their blog.

I plan to stay public. Granted I don't think my blog is very inspirational, but hey it is what it is and it is mine.

Not sure I'm ready for a good cry right now, but when I am I will check out their story!

Amy R said...

Okay, I'm not reading that blog tonight because it's midnight & I have to get up in the morning. But soon, when I'm in the mood for a good cry, I'll be a sobbing mess. And I'm not pregnant. I know what you mean. I haven't been able to convince myself to go private either.

Aby Runyan said...

Oh thank goodness. If you were to go private that will be the very last straw. I just cannot be burdened with yet another private blog.

I cannot!

luvs, aby

Berrett's said...

i cried as well...one of my good friend's in our ward is friends with the family and sent out an email about it. it blows me away when i read stuff like that...life is so precious!! HEY and congrats on the bebe! I need to call you. :)

tina