The dilemma part is my husband. He has it stuck in his mind that he likes long hair (poor fool). The funny thing is, is that when I met him I had short hair. When we were engaged I had short hair and when we were married I had short hair. He always survives when I get my hair cut, but it doesn't take the guilties away from me.
Anyone who knows Adam knows he asks VERY LITTLE of me. He is easily pleased and never requests anything. Except for this. Not that he even "requests" it. But when the subject of me cutting my hair comes up (which is daily at this point), he just looks at my hair longingly and says I do like your hair long, or I've always preferred long hair (wow look at my major run on incorrectly written sentence. English majors ignore please).
So I tried to get around the cutting it, by just coloring it (besides the fact that I wouldn't let that women come near my hair with scissors). I LOVE the color and it really has helped my "I feel sexy" factor, but I still long to have it cut. I just feel prettier with shorter hair. I feel like I look my age. I'm 27. I want to feel young, look young (we all already know I act young). It's hard sometimes to feel sexy with four monsters.
I am not good at that whole "Husband comes home to beautiful family, clean house, dinner waiting and hot and sexy mama wearing stunning apron and high heels."
Adam walks into: Running children, Naked Tommy, Baby Crying, Dinner? What's That?, Kelly whining, Paige singing, hot and Sweaty mama wearing pajamas and a leg brace with old teal crocs on.
So do I actually think a haircut will suddenly make the planets align so that I can now accomplish all of my "over-achieving goals" for the day. YES I do. I think it will make a difference.
I think I have to remember how super beautiful I am, before it's too late. I don't want to wake up one morning when all of my children have gone off to school and realize that I have forgotten to take care of myself. I'm more important then that, and Adam deserves a wife who loves herself as much as he loves me... and he loves me alot, so that's alot of Jen-Loving I've got to start having.
Ethical Dilemma Solved. Thank you for your time.